During the summer last year God made some big changes in my heart. I had a burning passion about softball, usually, but not only was I feeling bored and worn out, I dreading going to practice almost every day, and almost hated the sport. Many people around me at the time were talking about mission trips they had gone on and how much they had learned from God. I started to look around on the internet for mission trips I could possibly go on this coming summer, at the very time I was looking at AIM’s missions my summer coach called me asking if I wanted to play next summer, of course I said yes because I felt like I was obligated to and after all wasn’t it my passion in life? As soon as I got off the phone with him I felt the “alter call syndrom” (sweaty hands, racing heart rate, the nagging voice in the back of your head that you cannot ignore) The next morning I couldn’t take it any longer, I hadn’t talked to my mother but once about a mission trip but I knew I had to do it. My voice was cracking and I was sweating as I was dialing my coaches number. I explained to him that I couldn’t play for him anymore and that I was sorry for saying yes but taking it back and that I would happy to play if they ever needed a back up player later on, crying the whole time, not because I was sad, but because it was such a big turning point in my life. It was a miracle of God that he could understand a word I said. He was very supportive and said that it would be something he could see me doing and loving. That phone call has been the most important of my life, as soon as I got off the phone I felt so relieved, this weight I had on my chest for a very long time that I didn’t know was there was lifted off and happiness and relief was in its place. At that moment I knew I was doing exactly what I was supposed to.
Pslam 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Now that the school season is back around, I have ever had as much fun playing as I am now. God not only showed me what he wants me to do and given me a passion for him and his plan, but restored that passion for the game that I had when I first started out. I cannot get enough of it, and I know it is because I decided to put God at the wheel of my life.
I cannot wait to go on this trip with everybody. Its very exciting not knowing exactly what God is going to be doing. Looking forward to experiencing Jamaica with all of you! God Bless
